1 - Down The Street

"Taking walks by yourself"


Ok, umm.. how do I start? Umm.. so, this is my first time writing a blog so forgive me about my English typing "skillz". Yep, taking walks by myself. When I was in Jeddah, Saudi Arabia, It's not easy to live there but some Filipino people always think that living in abroad is easy and it's fun and enjoying. Well, not always but sometimes. Jeddah is a Muslim country, in general, almost all of the "trendy things" there are prohibited because of Muslims? I think? They said that they are not allowing these "things" because it's "haram" it means that if they allowed or do that "things" they will commit a major/minor sin. I know what you're already thinking, why do other countries allow these
"prohibited things"? Like, U.A.E., Dubai, and etc? I don't know, but, some people said that these countries allow these "things" even a church these countries have it. It's weird right? It sounds like they're Muslim countries but they have like our church here in the Philippines. If you wanna get me straight to what I'm saying about these "things". I meant that... you know, strippers, hot girls. I'm not saying that I like these girls but it's strange right? I mean, it's a little confusing, really.


So, do you wanna know my story when I sometimes walk down the street by myself? Click "X" if you don't want to, scroll down if you want to. There is this guy that I was always with him. He's really funny though. Fat, white, half-Chinese and half-Filipino guy. Height is 5"7? Ok, I don't want to be specific I know you're thinking that I am gay but I am not. Hell no, man. You wanna know why? Because he's my best friend ever since we were kids in Jeddah. We're so close because of our common similarities. We are so fudgin' happy when we are hanging out with each other because of his face and the way he tell a joke. His name is Marc Jacob Ching, by the way. I'm reminding you I'm not gay. He is studying in University of Asia & the Pacific right now. But sometimes, I take a walk... by myself. It's not easy, it's like. When I'm alone, I overthink and I really hate it. I think about my friends, my best buddies, my family, the memories that I've been through. I hate this because it makes me so negative that I am already hating myself.


                 

Yeah, that's right. You see that? That is really fudgin' true. And I'll be damned if this thing is always occurring to me. If you want to know how am I escaping this. I just listen to my own music in my smartphone like metal bands, alternative-rock bands, just something relative to a rock band or a rock music. Or sometimes, I just pray and ask God, "Why do You have to do this to me? I mean, I am so

stressed right now and I can't figure it out what is happening to me? So please Lord God have mercy and please remove this overthinking thingy in my head because it's annoying." then I did the sign of the cross. By the way, I'm a Roman Catholic. Sometimes, when I am walking down the street, I am realizing like "What will I do when the time comes? When I get to college or will I finish my college? I know, find a job, find a nice place to live, grow a happy family, you already reached your very precious goal. What now? What's next?" :)